say Hi to final year!

hello there as the title said, welcome to the final year of Dentistry! omg omg omg i can't believe i made it to the final year which is the fifth year of dentistry. happy huh? yes of course i am. went through hell to get here. Alhamdulillah for the chance, i am truly grateful!

anyway i know my blog is lame. who uses blog nowadays.. haha i just want to keep track of my life bc i find it interesting every time i read my 3 year old entry...

so yeah i just feel like writing a post. its been awhile since my laptop had a problem which it still has and my mum bought me a new one. here i am typing on my new laptop haha lol. so.... i will be starting my class next week i have like a few days before i have to go through hell again. i can't count how many times have i cried, how i struggled those years just to be here just to survived 4 years of dental school and i know 5th year is not gonna be easier either, tougher instead. gotta be prepared. i really hope what i have studied for the past years remains fresh in my mind that i could apply everything clinically. still remember nagging over how dreadful my second year was, never would i have known it gets tougher each year.

as years goes by, i realize one important thing that i have to keep in my mind; stop comparing myself with other people. it doesn't matter in what terms, just stop doing so. because that was what I've been doing the past years. that was what lead me to depression, sadness and disappointments. i kept comparing myself with how lucky those people are how happy how how how why why why not me. i kept asking Him why me, why not her, why her why not me. i knew it was wrong but i kept doing the same thing because i thought He would consider..... and of course he wouldn't if kita tak bersyukur for the things that we have. why do we have to compare ourselves with those who have more? instead compare your lucky self with those who have less.

no matter how many times you failed, remember failure is the  pillar to success. i am thankful for my struggle, because without it i wouldn't have stumbled across my strength. without it, i wouldn't have made it this far. another tough year huh? let's do it!