Truth to be told,
Im scared.
Because i somehow feel like how im gonna live my life without the support of my family. I mean, my one year in mestech i were always begging to go home. Deep down i was homesick. At home i would tell all my problems to my mum and ask her for opinions and advise to overcome those problems. And how will that be without them?
I'll be there for four years plus my one year of degree here in msia so total up of 5 years of degree. May Allah ease ✨
It has always been my dream to study overseas. Always. Since i was in primary. And getting the scholarship to further my studies in Jordan is the best chance i ever had in my life.
I can still conjure up these three best moments in my life;
Getting straight A's for UPSR, PMR and SPM.
Yes, for these three results i cried. And i cried the most during my SPM result. Tho my parents were not there to watch me walking up to the stage, yes to be honest i was kinda disapointed. but what more could i ask for other than the efforts they put for me to get on the stage?
One may says 'ala straight A je pun bukan A+ ke apa'
but for me, it worth than any gift. Im not from a genius family ke apa and yes i worked so hard for it. Sometimes rasa annoyed dengan makhluk yang ckp
'rilekla takya rajin sangat'
My father once said "papa dgn mama tak berpelajaran tinggi. Ayang bukan genius. but i want you to achieve success, so work hard for everything. there's no easy ways" whatever it is, just have faith towards Allah. We may get good results but that means nothing tanpa berkat Allah s.w.t.
Apart from being away from my family, one thing that im scared the most
Friends
Idk why but i always have an easy way of getting friends at first but at the end there must be misunderstanding between us. Yes. Thats life. Thats what we call as friendship. But i somehow feel annoyed w the ppl who really dont go on my way. I always keep it a secret and at last burst out and broke the relationship. Im the type of person yang okay je dgn semua benda. But theres always a limit to everything ain't it?
Im going to stay w/ hana and her housemate. I dont know each and everyone if 'em. But i really hope we can mix well in shaa Allah :) plus im good with hana hope everything will be fine.
My flight has confirmed to be on the 5th of September, Friday. It is just too early and im not mentally prepared. Ya know. The kind of nervous feeling plus the upcoming homesick feeling im gonna face. Huargh ðŸ˜
Zetty is getting engaged on the 30th of August and my kenduri doa selamat will be on the same day. Hope to see most of my friends on that say since time fly nnt mcm susah je dorang nak datang. Kinda feel excited for Zetty weeee 🌸
Bila duit Mara nak masuk pun tk tahula. Gonna go out to buy that traveller thingy plus things to bring to jordan - this weekend. Thats the exciting part woho is just gonna be a hectic month for me and my family. Plus nak prepare my sister's engagement. Hope everything will run smoothly.
Alwi is going to Canada. End of this month. Its gonna be like freakin' far Jordan and Canada 😔 i want to cry. Hmmm.
I miss my kelana jaya friends. To see them happy dkt insta is just more than enough plus the jealous part bcs im not in the photo. I miss being in smkkj but jujur never in my head to be there again. Haha. Full of ups and down yeah so much to be remembered.
The reason im writting this bcs i somehow feel like posting something before i go. When i read back my previous post and i found it precious enough. Well walaupun no one is reading my blog - except me.
I heard from seniors that our first year in Jordan for dentistry programme will be a lot more tougher than our first year in msia. Gonna get myself ready for everything physically and mentally. Fuh. Literally, im scared to death. Wtv it is i always remember this phrase whenever i face exams or test
We try our best,
Let Allah do the rest.
Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku berada di sana selama 4 tahun. Harap dapat graduate 2018 and by that time, ppl will have to call me Dr. Syaza! Dentist to be - Ameen :)
Aminn
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