stop comparing

since im in the mood of blogging and since its holiday, i'll just spend some time to blog :)

i've been fighting with myself quite a bit lately. my battle with complacency and fear of getting too comfortable. this is my problem. it applies literally to everything. actually, it is okay to be selfish. it is okay to relish in the now and hustle for something more.

its only through exploring possibilities that we could actually make things possible.

you know how im so addicted towards running. yes, since primary. i never let myself lose in track. i tried my best. some people might think its a waste of time let your body got tanned and nonstop sweating. but to me, its a satisfaction. i took it as 'this is not a race' i dont even think of others around me. im sure others might get competitive with it, but i’m running that race for myself. to see how far i could go.

i should practice in my life too. if you realize we constantly compare our beginning to someone else's middle, our middle to someone else's end. even i, myself. and when you keep on doing that, you'll find that you're never ever satisfied. you'll never ever be good enough, you'll always struggle to celebrate your accomplishments.

as for example, all 60 of us are dying for 4flat, but the only matter is to achieve 3.5 so that we can fly to jordan, what does this 4 flat matters to you? you've already attained all A's, dont be too greedy to share w other people, help them, so that we could all fly to jordan. not the 4flat that we're running towards, but the title of a doctor.

tbh, i always find faults in order to make my life miserable. I am not saying that my life's miserable. it is not. Alhamdulillah, i have a house, loving parents, lovely family, trusted friends. but sometimes you just can't help it, to wish to have a better life.

as a nutshell, try to be grateful with what we already have.